School+Poems

Poem one

__Untitled__ This place is a mental ward in desperate need of foreclosure different pods of yellow and gray segregating the insanity

Windows bleeding stale epoxy cracked and caked from years of wear unmovable by human hands trapped forever behind panes of glass.

A society of misguided youth resides governed by egotistical teachers flapping their mouths like dying fish dressed in clothes that bulge their fat.

We are Individuals that riot we take siege of this pitiful place and create happiness from disparity and depression

But happiness is but a dream in a world of such bleak conditions dim lighting in the halls to mask the shame of past failures.


 * Another**

__Ode to My Escape__ I sit at home all alone trapped behind walls of bone and flesh. winds blow through me my heart rattles in my chest blood freezes I begin to convulse. a prisoner of my own mind left to die with my own thoughts. thoughts of destruction, death, and deceit wondering if my Dad's still alive after living in a bar for three weeks.

But here's to you the place of my escape a building filled with brain rot and hate. uniquely and systematically raping my mind keeping it caged and confined. force feeding me ideas sandwiched between thick layers of lies. student bodies sit like rotten tomatoes unable to process anything but "who said what" and "who fucked who."

I'm a stranger to this place but that's ok cause I can ar least pretend I belong. I feel like a lost sheep but there's no shepherd to find me. we lost each other and I don't want to find him. I'd rather wander through these halls as a hopeless ghost with no dreams an empty shell of what I used to be. no one will see through this translucent flesh. they'll never care about me.

Alas this is my escape, my unholy savior. a place to live carefree away from alcohol soaked memories, and holidays plagued with pain. a world that eats my memories removing emotion from my thoughts. I may never be remembered here but at least i've learned what I need, and my needs don't involve these people.


 * Another**

__Thirteen Ways of Looking at ME__ I Here I sit by myself A stranger in a crowded room Sticking out among all the others The bell rings

II A smile crosses my mouth Teacher jumps like a grasshopper Scribbles on the board The bell rings

III Fake bitches Constant complaining I sit alone The bell rings

IV Fake smiling I like it here But I'm alone The bell rings

V Smells like chicken Structured chaos I'm a knight round a hexagonal table amour glinting under florescent bulbs

VI I'm alone Standing in line Surrounded by smiles That are not my own

VII Small and insignificant Outcast like a dog Happy to be unhappy The bell rings

VIII Running, jumping, repeat Sweat drips in the heat Rosy cheeks The bell rings

IX Chemical spills Balding teacher I alone in this empty row The bell rings

X Journeys through the hall A fragile body thrown into walls A fixture on a locker the bell rings

XI I'm late but that's okay I'm met with smiles I'm welcome here

XII I feel not big Nor any too small Just right I fit in

XIII Words and letters spin around me Happiness in all direction I'm complete The bell rings Return to hell


 * Another one...**

__ALONE__ No one is here, complete desolation. Gray ash covers the Earth, Sulfur fills my nose burning my hairs. I feel I'll never be seen like a black hole. No one in the whole world will ever see what beauty I hide beneath this dry cracked skin. Hidden forever, Like a sock lost in the dryer. I wish that just one person could see me, I wish I no longer lurked in the shadows like a panther on it's prey. I will no longer live life lonely, I will blossom, bloom, and burst with confidence, becoming the brilliant fragrance of a new spring. I will rise from my ashes like a Phoenix from death. I am "Free at last. free at last" No longer alone in this cruel world, I have found myself.


 * Another**

__Revolutions__ Love seems so far away Like a distant postcard Sent miles away. Yet some say they've found it Here in these halls. An invisible cupid That just hates me. Suffering and pain Is easy when it comes naturally.

"Please come find me" Is what I'll scream But silence is all I'll receive Destiny has seemed to fade away, Nothing left but couples And me the trike. Just peddling away to nothing But an early grave And a ruptured heart.

This year will be different. I'll start a new. The birth of a star That still has hope But is quickly fading Into the dark universe. Save me. save me. From extinction and pain. I still need you. Please come help me.